But here's the thing: it doesn't have to be that way. Who would you be if you started noticing your moments of brilliance? If you let yourself take credit for them? If your mistakes weren't the most important thing anymore?
It’s fine to aim for excellence, but when you get too attached to the outcome, you can spend hours fixated on an ideal that doesn’t exist, or that doesn’t really matter.
That’s perfectionism, and it's why you feel untalented, not good enough, and exhausted, and wonder where the heck all your time went.
(Perfectionism is sometimes held up as a virtue, but it’s actually an ugly trap that keeps you caught in ways you often don’t see, and it can not only make you miserable and waste your time, but burn you out, fuel self-judgment, and destroy your relationships with others.)
In the meantime, you look at kids (or at Robin Williams) and you’re mystified. You'd love to get that energy back. But how? How do they do that?
They do it because they’re okay with making bad art. They’re not worried about what other folks say.
The 4-year-old's inner critic hasn’t been installed yet. Robin Williams learned not to listen to his.
Imagine being able to drop those voices telling you you're not good enough, that your work isn't perfect enough, and that you shouldn't even try something new because you won't be able to do it well enough.
Imagine creating just for the fun of it, without worrying about the outcome, and enjoying the process no matter what the product is like.
It may seem impossible, but you can de-fang your inner critic. It just takes time and practice. You might not get all the way to Robin Williams’s level, but you can get a whole lot closer than you are right now.